The Real Beauty of Billie Eilish
As a child, I could not understand why many of my friends and classmates liked a certain actor in a musical comedy movie called Billie Eilish. The actress who played the lead role was the consummate actress; Billie had a huge smile and was so bubbly that she made every joke she spoke sound like a giggle. She was always laughing, and that made me feel like I belonged.
It wasn’t much of a secret that I wanted to be her; I wanted to be so much like her that I couldn’t believe that someone didn’t tell me before. She was beautiful and sported a big, thick mane of long hair. With her two piercings on her nose and little pink tongue ring, she looked so cute and innocent. Her eyelashes were just long enough to flutter across her eyes when she smiled, as if looking out at the world from just outside a rain forest.
When I watched her in her film debut, I was inspired to write a love letter to her, and I used the lyrics “I like to be your special friend”. She was no more my special friend than she was a bee, or a butterfly, or a snail. Billie was my first crush; I used to watch the movie and repeat the lines “When she’s done with her job, she gets back out on the streets and kicks a**.” It was as though, whenever I was watching this film, my heart would burst with joy.
After graduating from college, I dated a guy for years, but my emotional connection with him was nonexistent. I could never be truly happy and loved when I was single. Then, I found my soul mate in the theater class that I had taken after college. In the past few years, I have discovered several movies that I adored, and Billie Eilish was definitely one of them.
When I heard this song, I was instantly transported back to my childhood. I realized then that I had fallen in love with Billie and that I could relate to the chorus. I cried so hard because I realized that, my life and hers are not so different, and we both have these dreams. We both want to be our special friend, our special flower, and we want to be with someone who we can laugh and love at the same time. When you live with someone for a while, you learn about the real personalities of that person, and Billie Eilish is a real person, too.
There is a certain quality of true friendship that you will see if you are familiar with the phrase. That is why I love to watch movies with her. I am not sure that it is what she really wants, but she is showing me what I would want to have. I think of Billie Eilish as a friend; I love her friendliness and her confidence. She seems so confident in her own skin, and she has nothing to prove.
The sad thing is that, most women like Billie would feel this way. They would love her friendliness, but they don’t realize that their confidence is also fake. If you go into a relationship with confidence, the relationship is going to end with you being fake, too.
I believe that relationships like mine, with Billie and me, show that we are all in a romantic world. We all want the real things in life, and there is nothing wrong with that.
